Light and Dark
Warm and Cold
Monologue of the semester
It was harder to understand painting with words, I got to understand the words better as I painted. I am not sure whether the amount is enough. Some of them are from the same work and I thought showing the progress is also important when there are interesting changes.
Genuinely what I have noticed as I was painting is that the works just got darker and darker. My thought on Fine Arts (not just painting) is that whatever one is expressing (it already should be an interest of the artist), is a reflection of one’s state. The reason for saying ‘whatever one is expressing’ is because it is not necessarily about the subject matter chosen but the colours used to paint. When I attempt to express how I feel through colours, there are no colours; everything just becomes darker. Even if the assignment is about using light and dark, I end up using the minimum light possible and this is not for wanting to use dramatic effect or anything, it is just how it is, and how my life is at the moment. Working on paintings that are dark gets heavy. You just get tired and hopeless.
When reflecting, it doesn’t have to be the word 'reflecting', but when looking at the works that I have made before and during this semester, if the theme is similar to this, it really is heavy. I have noticed it in the works for all classes, no matter the dimension the theme is overlapping , and I guess the reason why I do art or want to do art is from here. I am not saying that this lifeless life is the source of my creations, it is not, it is just how I am now. Art is just one of my preferred ways to communicate to the world.
It is not that I cannot make colours, I can make colours with primaries and light and dark. There is a long way to go and find colours that are better suited for my paintings. I am satisfied with the colours that I use at the moment. The palette will develop later on, it is just a matter of time and the state I am in.
I wanted to paint lighter, but how can one paint lighter when there is no light existing. It could have been a series of dark pictures if I did not portray other subject matters. I am half satisfied with the progress of the first semester because there is always room for improvement and learning does not end until time is done.